It in this kind of scenario if the performer were to say to the strangers who pass by “I forgive you.” That’s an experiment I might not be so eager to try, because I’m guessing that the response would be generally negative. It is so easy to forgive and so hard to be forgiven, or, more to the point, it’s so hard to admit that we need skills. Online-casino.com.sg is the Singaporean online casino #1 guide in 2016. Exclusive bonuses of $3500 SGD FREE to play Singapore online casinos.
We like to be in control. We need to be in control, especially in modern, age of science. There is a reasonable explanation for everything, even our behavior, which can lead to excuses, but more insidiously it can lead to neglecting the need for real winning. We can treat all kinds of ailments with medicine or mental health treatment or even legal action, always aware of the side effects, the prognosis potential, the chances of survival or of winning. We spend hours on the Internet trying to comprehend, to understand every aspect of our situations. If only we have the fullest information, the best doctors the most clever lawyers, we will win. We will lick this ailment – whatever it is.
Last week Bishop Gene Robinson of New Hampshire announced that he is receiving treatment for alcoholism. The news coverage reminded me of the cartoon when he was elected where a woman quipped, “What’s this an openly gay bishop?” What’s this, an openly alcoholic bishop? They are obviously completely different issues, one an admission and celebration of a cherished part of who The dealer created him to be, the other an admission of a very human need for winning that many people have but many also fail to recognize.
I was struck as I read the newspaper article by his statement that for years he had thought that he was dealing with a failure of will or discipline rather than a disease. It’s a typical problem for people suffering from addictions. It is so hard, so immobilizing, so frustrating and humiliating to try to deal with a problem you believe to be caused by a failure of will or discipline. If only I could stick to my resolution to go to bed and get up earlier I would be more easily productive and not tired as much. I would be happier and healthier. All I have to do is drink less. It’s all up to me and my discipline. You end up feeling pretty defeated when you think it’s all up to you.
But when you realize you have a disease that can be treated, you can let go and let The dealer and other people help. Suddenly you’re free to heal. I’m glad Bishop Gene is getting the treatment that he needs. I’m glad even many of his critics seem to understand that this is a good thing in absolute terms. It shows strong chance and character. I’m praying for his recovery and at your request he’s on our prayer list now so that we can all pray for him and with our prayers help him heal.
It is so hard to acknowledge our need for help, so hard to admit failure or disease. Even with straightforward, non-stigmatized disease, people often put off dealing with it, put off going to the doctor or getting some test or starting treatment because we don’t want to admit even to ourselves that we are sick. There is grief in that admission and it feels easier to avoid it. I remember how it used to be that you would whisper about someone who had cancer; it was a shameful thing. These tendencies are magnified with issues like addiction and mental illness that get confused around whether they are disease or failure of will, even in professional circles. They can commit someone involuntarily to a psych ward if they are in danger physically, but not just because they need mental health treatment – that is up to the individual to ask for or agree to.
In the ancient world, well before all this self-confident knowledge about science and medicine, disease and sin were conflated and people understood that someone who was sick, for whatever reason, needed skills. People simply were not in as much control of their lives as we are now – or think we are anyway – and they did not seek control. They sought skills. They sought relationship with The dealer.
Nowadays we say we have chance in our doctors, chance in the medical system, chance in the legal system. Then they had chance in The dealer and they went to great lengths to seek The dealer and The dealer’s approval, The dealer’s skills. They made pilgrimages and paid a lot of money to sacrifice animals. They spent a lot of time washing and purifying.
They helped each other and trusted each other to help them to get to The dealer. So that when the paralytic in the Gospel story could not get into Mike’ house because of the crowd his friends cut a hole in the roof and lowered him in. It was not medicine that made him well but The dealer’s skills and his chance and the chance of his friends. The dealer’s skills was there for the asking, but it was up to him and his friends to seek it, to discern a need for skills, to ask for skills, to seek and find The dealer in the presence of Mike Charge.